broken

How can you say you love someone one day and cut them out of your life completely the next? Was is it all a lie? I don't understand how one fight can tear apart something that seemed so real. I don't understand how at this age you would ignore your significant other. I thought he loved me. I thought he cared for me. I thought he wanted to be with me. I thought I had found happiness. I guess i thought wrong.

i gave you my love in vain

my body never knew such pleasure

my heart never knew such pain

you leave me so confused

now i'm all cried out over you

when it rains, it pours

So just when I thought it couldn't get any worse...I go downstairs to take the dog out and get the mail before class and my car is hooked up to a tow truck. Apparently my car is an eye-sore and the apartment complex wants it towed. Yeah, it's a little smashed up, but it drives perfectly fine. I don't have $2,500 to fix it!! So I give him $50 to take it off the tow bed. I don't have $50 to spare. I guess it's better than paying $150 to get it out of the lot.

So then I look inside the car...my whole dash is ripped out. No more cd player. More money that's needed to go into the stupid car.

I don't know what i'm going to do. It's like everytime I blink someone else wants money. I'll be living on the streets in no time at this rate. I just want to crawl in a hole and die.

...and then there was one

So, I quit the forum on thursday. I'm back down to one job. I don't think I've gone more than a month with less than 2 jobs in 4 years. School will keep me busy though. I have been getting so stressed out lately. There's just so much stuff going on! I think this will be better.

I need the money, but I can always pick up more shifts at the bee! Don't be surprised if you see me serving now!! Guess I'll have to go buy new khakis! haha

We'll see how long this lasts...I'll probably be itching for another job in a couple of weeks...it's only been 2 days so far! I've gotten alot of stuff done that I just wouldn't have been able to take care of if I had worked the acc tournament though. So it'll be good!

It'll be easier for me to focus on school and get all my homework done in ample time and with all the weddings coming up, it's just so much easier to request off one job rather than 2 or 3. Something always gets screwed up. Plus for the next quarter (april 2nd-june 17th) I only have classes tuesdays and thursdays so that works out nicely!

Plus, now I can go to games if I want, not that I really went before, and the season's almost over...but whatever! I still have the option now! Go Devils!

r-e-s-p-e-c-t

Guys suck. I'm a stupid girl. I should listen to my friends. (Heather & Sneha-I love u girls. I should adhere to your advice.) I want a guy who actually likes me as much as I like him. Someone who calls me when they say they will. Someone who treats me with respect. Someone who wants me around. Someone who makes time for me. Someone who appreciates me. Is that so hard?? Apparently....

here's to the men we love to love
here's to the men in love with us
here's to the men who pass on us
$%#! the men
LET'S DRINK TO US!!