So here I go...searching for my first apartment sans roommates...kinda scary...I've never lived alone before. I think it'll be good for me though. I need to be more independent. Time to be a grown-up!
What happens if I lock my keys in the house? Or I forget to take out the garbage? Or my car runs out of gas? Or something stupid happens that I just have to share with someone right now? Or I want to order pizza? I can't eat a whole pizza! Now I have to pay all the bills by myself. No assistance.
But, then again, I don't have to worry about stupid stuff. I can buy stuff for the living room/kitchen/dining room/whatever without worrying if she'll like it too. I can leave stuff in the fridge and KNOW that it will still be there tomorrow. I can walk around nude. I can leave stuff laying out anywhere in the apartment and know that's it's not bothering anyone. I can be as loud as I want. And my electric bill will probably go down drastically because I no longer have to go around turning all the lights off after someone leaves a room.
I think this will be great. A little weird at first, but great. I might make some of you keep me company ALOT at first, but I'll adapt. And it will be great.
How can you say you love someone one day and cut them out of your life completely the next? Was is it all a lie? I don't understand how one fight can tear apart something that seemed so real. I don't understand how at this age you would ignore your significant other. I thought he loved me. I thought he cared for me. I thought he wanted to be with me. I thought I had found happiness. I guess i thought wrong.
