God providentially directed Ruth to the field of Boaz. you find this divine encounter in the second chapter of Ruth, verse 3: "...and she happened to come to the portion of the field belonging to Boaz...." The verb happened in Hebrew means "chanced upon." This leaves no room for manipulation. She had a chance and her chance transported her into the center of God's will and right to Boaz's field....
If Jesus wants you married, He will orchestrate the encounter. You have nothing to fear except getting in His way and trying to "write the script" rather than following His. Jesus does have your best interest at heart. He desires to bless you by giving you the best. Sometimes what you perceive as the best is nothing more than a generic version. consider His wisdom and love in comparison to your own wisdom and self-love. In whom are you going to trust -- all Wisdom and Everlasting Love or little ol' finite you? ever since the Garden of Eden, women have often felt they could and should know as much as God. Much pain in our world has resulted from dependence on our wisdom rather than on our Father's.
You have nothing to fear except getting in His way and trying to "write the script" rather than following His.
Todays devotional reminded me of conversations I had with 2 different friends. Often during our LIW study (and in several conversations outside of, beforehand), my good friend and spiritual mentor, Desiree, would ask 'if you knew God was bringing you your perfect mate in 4 months (or however long), would you be able to wait?'. This thought provoked me. Of course! I could circle a date on my calendar and count down the days until that season of my life begins! Wonderful! Why then...can I not trust in Gods timing? If I am meant to be married than God will bring us together when we are both ready.
That brings me to the 2nd friend...Michael and I discuss relationships quite often, and yesterday we broached the subject of the possibility that marriage may not be in Gods plans for one or both of us. Hard pill to swallow. I think that I could come to terms with not ever being married...maybe. But the idea that I might not ever be a mom is devastating to me. There is nothing I've wanted more...for as long as I can remember. I've been babysitting since the moment I was allowed...for my younger sister when I was 11 and for other peoples kids when I was 12. Part of the reason I chose the field I'm in was because of the flexibility I'll have to be at home with my kids and still work. And since I don't want to have kids out of wedlock...I'm going to need a husband. All I can do is pray God gives me the patience to wait on His timing and brings me my godsend or that He takes away this great desire I have. Either way, I have to trust in His will.
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